I love Weight Watchers!!

So far, Weight Watchers has been just what I needed! I cannot say enough how much I appreciate the fact that it helps me make good food choices. I was looking at the Applebee's restaurant guide on my mobile app and my favorite selections (Dynamite Shrimp and Hot Wings) were 20 points and 19 points respectively. I get 30 points per day! I had 7 points left for the day and I saw that a garden salad was only 6 points. That would be my choice! Now, I would NEVER choose a garden salad over chicken wings on my own. Never ever. It's really really what I needed. I knew it would be, too! Good investment of money. I am back on track!!

A Christmas Gift to Myself

Every year at Christmas my grandmother gives me money to spend on myself. It is expressly for that purpose and she's adamant about it. So this year, I spent my Christmas money to sign up for Weight Watchers. My mom had great success with it and I'm drawn to the POINTSPLUS system that encourages you to eat healthier foods.
To be honest, I COMPLETELY lost focus while being home. I'm not afraid to admit it because I know that I'm in this for the long haul and slip ups are going to happen. That's why I signed up for Weight Watchers: I know that I cannot do this alone. I hated counting calories, but the POINTS systems is much more appealing. I love their program from what I've heard, and it's extra motivation because I'm spending almost $20 a month to do it! I don't want that money to go to waste.
 There's a quote from the Weight Watcher's website that I wanted to share:
"Be mentally ready. I'm convinced that you have to want to do it for yourself, mostly by yourself and have a clear reason why. If you have not psyched yourself up for a weight-loss marathon, you might initially — and briefly — sprint, but not cross the finish line." -Gail
I understood that this was a marathon, but I guess I didn't truly let it sink in. I wanted fast results while putting in half hearted effort. Yes, I ran, but as soon as I came home I stopped. If I was all in, I would have run every other day like I wanted to originally. Another thing is my "clear reason why". What is mine? Well, I'm tired of being overweight for one. I want to be a good role model for my son. I want to look great for my husband-to me, that's part of fulfilling my vows to him. I want to love him well, and part of that is trying to look my best. And last but not least, I struggle with an anxiety disorder and major depression. If there is any area of my life that I can take control of to try to help my depression, I'll do it. This is a very manageable area that will have great effects on my depression level.
Thanks for reading!

Losing focus

For the past week I've been losing focus. I came home to visit and have only worked out once. I also haven't been counting calories. Today I popped on the Biggest Loser and kind of reminded myself what I'm doing. I don't have that much weight to lose compared to them, but I won't lose any weight if my focus isn't there. Hopefully I'll be getting some things for christmas that will help me towards my weight loss goal. This has been a wake up call for me.
Another big thing is living in denial. When you live in denial you think food is less calories than it actually is and that you can eat whatever you want and not gain weight. When you see clearly and strip away the lies, you can proceed to live a healthy life. That's what I hope to do.

Up and Down

I jogged 40 minutes again yesterday with a 30 second break halfway through. I really had to push myself, I wanted to give up so badly, but I didn't! I kept thinking about the people who read this and I want to show them how someone can put their mind to something and accomplish it.
I also weighed myself and I've lost about a pound. Which is great, but the number keeps going up and down between 178.2 and 177.6. It's like stuck or something! I need to break out of this somehow.
I don't know if I can run today because I stepped on something last night and now it's lodged in my foot. I can't get it out! I think it's a small piece of hard plastic. Ouch...

2 miles is nothin!

I can't believe it, but two miles is not hard for me anymore. I jogged it today and I was barely out of breath. The first time I jogged two miles, I was staggering afterwards and was pouring sweat. It's incredible how your endurance goes up! The only reasons I didn't do more were because the track was so crowded and I felt nauseous from the hot sauce that was in my lunch!

Oh no...

I overshot my calorie limit by hundreds yesterday...I am not happy with myself, especially since I put so much hard work into my workouts. I really have to be committed to this, and I feel like sometimes I'm not because I make such bad decisions. I need to figure out what's going on.

Great Endurance!!

I jogged 40 minutes today! Longest I've ever jogged! My endurance has skyrocketed since I started jogging for the second time.
I just want to say to those reading that I have never EVER been in shape in my life. I also have asthma, so don't think you can't do something just because you have limitations. I was thinking while I was jogging about that guy who has no arms or legs, just a little foot. He plays soccer! We shouldn't let something even debilitating deny us of the chance to have what we really desire.

Hmmmm....

So I weighed myself today and I GAINED back that half pound I lost. I'm so confused because I can really tell a difference in my body. Maybe I'm just gaining muscle? Also, someone told me that since I don't have alot to lose it will come off slowly. I want to lose about 35-40 pounds, but I guess that's nothing compared to those on the Biggest Loser. I guess that's why I've been disappointed with the scale. It's just not reflecting the work I'm putting in.
Another thing is that when I exercise, myFitnessPal gives me more calories to eat. Maybe I would do better by ignoring that and sticking to my regular calorie limit.

5K, baby!!

I jogged three miles today!!! That's a 5K! I can't believe I did that. I've been jogging 2.5 miles for a little while and today I just decided that I would push myself beyond what I was comfortable with. And I did it in 38 minutes, which was only two minutes longer than the pace I usually jog. Yay!!!!!!!!!!!